sad, small, sweet, so delicate

dmbstalker01 @ 2008-03-30T22:27:00

2008-03-31T02:27:59Z

the thought of going to Boston for college next year terrifies me.

oh, hi, by the way.

dmbstalker01 @ 2007-10-02T19:17:00

2007-10-02T23:18:20Z

Yayy for going back to LJ!
Now I just have to remember how to work everything...

dmbstalker01 @ 2007-08-19T02:00:00

2007-08-19T06:01:17Z

i get by with a little help from my friends
i get high with a little help from my friends
gonna try with a little help from my friends

=)

dmbstalker01 @ 2007-03-13T17:43:00

2007-03-13T21:43:39Z

Wow. I must say I do miss writing in this thing.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-12-03T15:46:00

2006-12-03T19:46:44Z

Woo.
Shit's craazy.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-10-12T20:03:00

2006-10-13T00:03:46Z

Where did September go!?

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-07-28T22:09:00

2006-07-29T02:10:24Z

Guess who gets to visit Michael the little Coast Guard cadet tomorrow
:)!!!!!

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-06-20T13:13:00

2006-06-20T17:14:08Z

You know...
I declare this the summer of heartache and growth.
It seems suiting thusfar.

DMB at SPAC :)

2006-06-18T03:46:40Z

jun.16.2006

Pig *
Everyday *
Don’t Drink the Water *
Grey Street *
Proudest Monkey * -->
Satellite *
Big Eyed Fish *
Bartender *
What You Are *
Typical Situation *
Dancing Nancies *
Break Free *
Where Are You Going?
Jimi Thing *
Louisiana Bayou *
Encore
Sister
JTR *
Stay *

* Rashawn Ross on trumpet
~ Dave solo

Wowwww. Amazingg. During Dave's little moaning part in Bartender, when Mike was holding me, I just closed my eyes and took it all in. How young and free I am... how alive I felt in that moment... And JTR holy crap. What an absolutely beautiful song. Everyday and Where Are You Going were sweet, cute little songs. And everything else was just... incredible. I would've loved Crash Into Me, but hey, can I really complain??

What a lovely way to start of the (almost) summer...

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-06-15T22:39:00

2006-06-16T02:39:21Z

Dave Matthews Band @ Saratoga tomorroww!
Yayyy!!
:)

yayy :)

2006-06-04T17:29:48Z

You know,
despite they petty things that annoy me,
and how I get mad for no reason sometimes,
life is good.

7 more days of school,
4 regents exams after that.
I just need to sit down,
focus,
and finish it up.

God help me.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-05-26T19:39:00

2006-05-26T23:41:47Z

I've got good date hair,
good date clothes,
and good date make-up.
But am I going on a date tonight?
Nope.

Relationships (family, friends, whatever) are soo confusing sometimes.
I keep flip flopping between being crazy about someone to having lukewarm feelings about them.
I don't get me sometimes,
but I guess that's the beauty of being 16.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-05-04T18:52:00

2006-05-04T22:56:52Z

I've definitely been PMSing for like a month now. Today it's like PMS overload, as in talk to me and I bite your head off. I even have a MILLION and one pimples all over my face, but do I have my period yet? Nope. Hmm yeah it's about two weeks late. No, I'm not pregnant so don't try to be cute and funny (ahh the PMS talking again). And OF COURSE when I'm at my bitchiest, someone wants to start some drama with me. What a dumbass kid. I will kill him.

Crew is soo beyond tiring... and my body is seriously messed up. My leg has been killing me for like a month. And today my spine was definitely sore or tired or something. I don't even get it. I'm falling apart, and yet I refuse to see a doctor or anything.

I need a break.

On the bright side of things, tomorrow is FRIDAYYYY. Thank God for weekends.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-05-03T20:46:00

2006-05-04T00:49:39Z

Life was going fine.
Then a boy came along
and he put my world into focus again.
And now I'm noticing how slowly the hours and days pass.
Bittersweet.

Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?

Life is slow,
a boy strolls in,
and suddenly everything is a blur.
But maybe that's only in the movies.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-04-28T21:51:00

2006-04-29T02:02:50Z

So I have this problem...
I'm terribly good at leading on boys who I have absolutely zero interest in.
And the boys I actually like... not so much.
Maybe it has something to do with pressure? Like, I know I'm not going to end up going out with the guy I don't like, so why not jerk him around and have a little fun?
Wow... that sounds absolutely awful in writing...

So apparently I had been searching for the book "Charmed Thirds" in bookstores about two weeks too soon. But now that it's out, and now that my friends' lives seem to resemble those teen novels more than ever, I'm dying to get it. Ugh, of course once I get this whole school/end-of-the-year cramming/finals/regents exams thing out of the way, I'll actually have time to pick up a book that isn't part of the 10th grade curriculum.

Oh, and as of now, I am pretty damn happy.
I have changed soooo much in such a short time,
but I love it.
Let's keep it going like this.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-04-26T19:53:00

2006-04-26T23:54:06Z

I'm in a race against the clock.
Time always wins though, doesn't it?
Damn.

---

2006-04-08T00:18:31Z

Ahh dear Spring Break.
I'm sooo tired,
so I'm going to make brownies,
cuddle up in bed,
and watch Fight Club.
For the first time in 3-4 weeks,
I can breathe.

man oh man

2006-04-06T01:48:37Z

I need spring break.
I've been fighting to keep my eyes open for the past three weeks.
Maybe I'm secretly superwoman
'cause I definitely should've dropped dead by now.
But over the break next week, I have crew every morning from 7:00-9:30 am.
Okay, yeah that sounds crazy, but you have NO idea how gorgeous the Hudson River is at 7 am.
I honestly wish I could take my friends there some morning just to see the world waking up with me.

Okay, I have to finish this week up.
Time to work... :\

yayy

2006-03-22T23:46:09Z

I got my permit
and I aced it.
:)
Sometimes I wonder why I worry so much...

show your world to me

2006-03-20T01:19:00Z

Whoa.
I'm pretty damn tired.
But things are pretty cool
*knock on wood*.
I kinda like how things are in this moment.
I'm really busy, but when I get things done,
I have this great sense of accomplishment.
Drama has kind of slowed down,
but I think it's more so that I don't care about other people's problems anymore.
Yeah that's kind of terrible and selfish, but I needed to be a little selfish.
Let's hope this week goes quite quickly and painlessly...

The things I do...

2006-03-17T22:48:48Z

This was a freaking stressful week
but I made it through
NO tears either,
thankyouverymuch.
But now that I'm home,
Friday night,
ALL I want to do is eat pizza
and watch t.v.
Alone, preferably.
My parents have to go to a wedding reception...
I'd have the house to myself...
But
I have to go to my sister's house
and hang out with her tonight
because "She never has anyone to hang out with
and Rob's at hockey so she's all alone at home.
Your sister really is looking forward to spending
time with you tonight."
Nice guilt trip, mom.

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-02-27T20:44:00

2006-02-28T01:45:07Z

Has anyone ever seen the movie Punch-Drunk Love?

This song reminds me of guns.

2006-02-25T01:40:07Z

God, I'm so terrible at sports. It sucks. No matter how hard I try, I kind of plateau. And it sucks even more when I work on the rowing machine at crew, finish my rowing pieces before Nicole, and my coach is still like "Kelly, get a little quicker". Does he have coments for Nicole? No. But... she is in better shape than I am and she's a better athlete... it just sucks when your efforts aren't recognized. And it sucks having to prove yourself everyday. But at least I have motivation, I guess.

Well, that was a lovely rant.

Anyway... school is terribly boring. Study hall is nice. I get to get most of my work done in school. Otherwise, it's boring and terribly predictable. I see all of the same people at the same time each day. The same highschool dramas continue for months without ever really being resolved. So I've become more selfish. Who cares about other people's problems right now? I have to fix myself before I can fix everyone else, right?

Right.

I'm far to angry and tired to be writing in this right now...

dmbstalker01 @ 2006-02-18T23:46:00

2006-02-19T04:47:08Z

Best sweet 16 ever!?
I think so.
I love all of my friends SOOOO much and hopefully more details later.
Night, kids :)

wow.

2006-02-16T18:29:47Z

It feels like a spring day
and I can hear the world thawing out around me.
For one of the first times ever,
I can't wait for some warmer weather.

By the way,
I'll be 16 on Saturday.
I'm quite excited.
:)